My Journey of Changing Me

So today started off with me sleeping in as i posted in my very first Blog .. I did take my Relacore at about 10:30 (2 capsules) luckily you can take them with or without food! So that was kinda my breakfast .. lol not the best start .. but a start nonetheless ...

12ish - Lunch time rolls around and Mom and Hubby have leftover Pizza.. smells good.. sounds good.. but how can I screw up on my first meal? I can't! so i opt out of Pizza and go for the leftover Grilled Chicken on a bed of lettuce, black beans with a bit of Sour Cream and Avocado wedges .. and a Diet Cherry Dr P ... and 2 more Relacore as well as my Meds i have to start taking - I took 2 at lunch since I do better with those if I have food in my stomach!

2ish - So i had a nice snack of Black Berries & Black Grapes very yummy! I also worked out on the Wii Fit for a while.. so the Wii fit says 253 right now .. it had been 42 days since my last workout on there oops! I set a new goal of 5 lb in 2 weeks.. it may seem a lil steep BUT I have a lot to lose and I think cutting back on many of my indulgences! lol I also did the elyptical for a bit.. its making a funny sound though so hubs needs to oil it or something .. it used to be quiet!

6ish - well its dinner time... 2 more Relacore and a pill .. had tuna casserole and peas .. and I must confess I had a piece of Birthday cake.. a small piece but still a piece and a scoop of ice cream .. the plan is for this to be all I have the rest of the night .. lets hope I can stick with that!

1030ish - well i am still feeling full and do not want a snack yeah! My neighbor had to drop her lil one (3 yrs old) off about 4ish so that we could watch her while she went to the ER .. man I know my patients was pushed lol but I got through it though .. didn't turn to food to comfort my stress .. so thats a positive lol

I will be heading to bed here soon (she just called and is on her way to come get her daughter) So tomorrow will be another day!

I think I kinda like the type a bit throughout the day rather than one sit down post .. not sure if they will all be like this.. probably not since i am going to Vail Friday - pray i have some control lol .. like anything .. One Day At a Time!

So I have made the commitment to ME that today is the day I start changing me into whom I want to be! I may post several times a day or I may post once at the end.. i have not figured out exactly how this will work but I WILL make it work!

Today started with sleeping in a little, the last several weeks have been very stressful and very busy, so a day of sleeping in was good for me! I did however start taking the Relacore I purchased yesterday! It has mixed reviews... some say "IT WORKS" some say"Though I didn't see a significant weight loss i DID see a change in my Mood, levels of Anxiety and Stress" and of course some say "It is a waste if time and Money!"

In my opinion most "diet" pills that promise the world are a scam... but i can also say that from my personal experience that I tend to use "diet" Pills as a gentle reminder to myself to A. Watch what i eat and B. Remember to work out! Obviously a PILL alone will never fix what you have done to your body over the years, however in many cases the all natural (or in some cases not so natural) ingredients will start to help your body balance itself from all of the years of abuse we have put it through.

I am generally really bad about taking pills on a regular basis, in fact I am pre-diabetic and i am s'posed to take my meds 3 times a day and have not done so in some time - this too is changing today!

About 2 years ago when I was first diagnosed with pre-diabetes and was shocked, well maybe not shocked I mean i am over weight and I do eat horrendously at times but still I was only 34 and diagnosed with a "disease!" At that time I was "smacked" into the realization that i needed to do something.. and I DID! I started going to the gym, I started eating healthy and I lost 50 lbs! between May and October! I was fast approaching getting below that HUGE 200 lb mark .. i was SO excited .. I went out and bought some new clothes and was really proud of myself!

Then Oct 11th I went in for elective surgery for a reduction, things went great, i healed well, it did take a while to stop hurting from all of the muscle being bruised and such so alas my exercise went to the way side.. I started getting lazy and started doing "simple" meals and fast food and going out to eat .. and well 2 years later I have gained all of my weight back

SO.... Today i start my transformation and i WILL succeed.. I WILL lose the weight and be cleared of having Pre-Diabetes! This is my Vow to myself! I will not say I wont eat out or I wont on occassion grab fast food.. I am sure I will .. i am also sure I will indulge in cakes or pies or cookies on occassion as well.. BUT the key will be moderation! I hope to keep everyone updated daily as to what my situation is and how I am SUCCEEDING! I hope I don't bore you all to death with my ramblings and I hope I can maybe even inspire some of you to take the journey for YOU!

Today i WILL eat better than I did yesterday, I WILL exercise more than i did yesterday and I WILL feel better about ME than I did Yesterday! I will treat today as it is .. a PRESENT!